indexzone

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im index | 20s | it/he | white jewish
friendly but malevolent cartoon labcoat wearer
i make music i make art i do many things. let me surprise and amaze you
i have extremely variable levels of energy
i love having fun and being myself :)

interests

objects, concepts. the world of things.
horror, surrealism, art criticism
hardcore electronic music, vocal synths
fabrication, design, pedagogy, zines
dolls, toys, crafting, weird animals
splatoon, nilfruits, petscop

Scan of a rubber strap of youmu konpaku with a red background.

a cute plush of youmu who is sitting down.

before you follow

i will block for any reason. nothing personnel
talkative and opinionated. this is a personal blog and is treated as such
i love perversion, unreality, horror, and generally weird uncomfortable shit. i can't really tag for these things.
but other than that you can ask me to tag stuff
18+ a friend to benign sickos
i like being nice. dfi youre mean
i <3 nuance

note these opinions

im anti-carceral, anti-abuse, & anti-contact. into accountability and transformative justice. we are all capable of harm, so let's be good to each other.
if you have a complete ideological issue with any kinks/fantasies on principle, or the discussion of these things among other adults, i do not want you here. begone!
however, i sympathize as someone who used to worry a lot about these things. i explained the reasons for my change of heart in this essay (it also has audio narration).
not into essentialisms or semantic arguments
i talk about politix when i want to and i don't when i don't.
universal compassion grindset 😈🔥💥💯💪
i don't think we're doomed ✨🌱🌻🤝🐠💖
thanks

if you’re here because you can’t contact me

Hi, you may have noticed I softblocked you, left your servers, unfriended you, etc. I did this to a huge number of people recently, including people I have been close with.I’ve experienced tectonic shifts in who I am as a person, with my values and sense of self changing significantly. This has been happening for a while, but is very difficult to communicate. I’m not the same person who befriended you however many months or years ago. I want to keep my accounts for the resources and history I’ve accumulated, but I have to let go of a lot. Think of this as a "remake" with the same account.I have an incredibly small amount of energy and I want to use it wisely. I want to spend less time online, and have my online experience feel enriching.
I am thankful for the good everyone I met has brought my life, and hope I could offer the same. What was good for me in the past isn't necessarily what I need now.I want to be clear that you didn’t do anything wrong. Many people I know carry immense shame. They feel they are too ill, too perverse, too negative... Many express a feeling of being less worthy, fundamentally, with no real start or end. My ending these relationships has nothing to do with you being “too much” or “too little” of anything. None of this is personal to you.I wish I could individually say goodbye to people, but I don’t have the capacity. I hope for all the best in your future relationships. May you find happiness, peace, love, and acceptance wherever you go. Take care, goodbye.
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